If you read part one of this blog, you know all about how overwhelmed I get. You know all about the pressure I put on myself to be perfect.
So, for the new year, and for this new season I'm entering, I am also taking on a new mindset. I'll give you an example of what I mean. Maybe it seems a little silly, but it was important for me to work through this.
Today, at the top of my to-do list, I wrote my first priority down along with a reminder: take care of Luke, help him feel better, feed him extra, and if nothing else gets done today, it's completely okay.
I'm giving myself room to breathe. I realize now that there are only so many things that I can accomplish in one day, and as long as I take care of my most important priorities, everything else does not require overwhelm and stress if left behind.
I'm not sure who originally said this (let me know if you do, I'd love to give credit!) but my favorite quote as I'm reflecting on this new season is,
We repeat what we don't repair.
Now I'm thinking, how can I repair negative thinking and stress? By reminding myself that I'm not a failure, and listing the good things I have, and the good things I've done.
How can I repair bad eating habits? By adding in more nourishing foods, instead of focusing on what I should take out of my diet. As I add, there will be less room for the chocolate and potatoes.
I am also experimenting with fun recipes that have healthier ingredients, because I know that I will be more successful if I'm excited about the process. Tonight, for example, I'm making a cranberry apple salad that looks absolutely delicious. I have to change my thought process from "eating healthy is boring" to "eating healthier is what my body deserves, and there's plenty of delicious food that is going to make me feel so much better than how I feel after eating brownies." **I'm still going to eat a brownie every now and then though, I'm not a crazy person.
Another thing I don't want to repeat is this cycle I have with my fitness. I go in bursts, usually short bursts. I have two, three, or four weeks of consistent exercise, and then a couple weeks of pretty much nothing.
This is something I'm really excited about changing, because exercise gives me so much energy, and as a new mom, I need all the energy I can get! So, the way that I'm aiming to repair this issue is with goals.
After gaining a lot of weight with my pregnancy, I found the most motivation in the goals I had. When I surpassed the goal, I made a new one, and that process kept going until about a month ago. But, working hard and seeing good results is so rewarding. It's good for your confidence, and to be honest with all of you, I could definitely use some more of that.
One example of a fitness goal I've set is about running. I've always believed that I'm bad at running. I don't want to feel that way anymore. If it's something I can learn and improve on, I don't ever want to just believe that I'm bad at it. Especially if it's important to me.
I want to run for thirty minutes without stopping.
On thursday I ran for ten minutes, and this morning I ran for eleven minutes. I'm on my way, and I'll take my time, because my legs are killing me today! But, I also feel accomplished that I'm working towards my goal.
I also believe that part of the reason I feel stress and disorganized, is because I am disorganized! If you saw my instagram story this week, you saw the chaos of organizing my closet. What you didn't see, is that I pretty much destroyed the rest of my house just to clean up one little closet. Because when you're organizing, you have to make a bigger mess before you can clean up the mess you started with.
Even if it takes me all year, I have a long list of things I'm organizing throughout the house. Having a more minimalist lifestyle will leave less for me to clean up, and it will be so good for my mental health. Just cleaning out the closet made me feel free.
I may write more blogs about my journey to organization, or I may be too busy reading other people's blogs on the same topic.
So those are a few of the goals I have set for the year, and I could make a much longer list, but I would get overwhelmed by it real quick.
All I know is that I'm planning to stick with these goals, and to spend more time with Jesus, spend more time with the people I love and the people that bring light into my life. I'll spend more time doing the things that make me happy. I want more of God, and less of me. I want to pray more, worship more, love more.
I'll get my cup filled, so that I can pour out more.
What are your goals for this year?