Just a few days ago, on Christmas Eve, my heart felt heavy. I was having a battle with my flesh all day. I was so self focused. I lay in bed and thought how badly I don't want to go to sleep like this. So I decided to turn my focus to what Christmas is all about: Jesus. I decided to focus on the most amazing, beautiful, undeserved gift of all: salvation. Grace. This poem came to me as I thought of all that He has given me, and all that I am without Him.

When I'm in the flesh

I feel unrest;

I feel alone

And second best.

In the flesh

I am insecure

Questioning everything

Always unsure.

Battling in my mind

I feel so defeated

Misunderstood, lost

Am I needed?

That's what I crave-

To feel heard, surrounded

And desired.

The only way to feel complete

is to look on higher.

Oh in the spirit, there is Joy!

Joy

Joy.

Abounding, limitless

Love,

Iniquities destroyed.

Jesus' love poured out

Bright red and clean.

I was blind

But now I see.


Often times, God will put a song or verse on my heart. The verse below was something that came to me, and the song "Fully Known" by Tauren Wells was playing through my mind. This song has been my favorite for the last few weeks, because the words are such an amazing reminder of the grace and love that our Father has for us.

I'm fully known, and loved by you. You won't let go, no matter what I do. And it's not one or the other, it's hard truth and ridiculous grace to be known, fully known, and loved by you

-Excerpt from Tauren Wells "Known"

Those words give me chills every time. It truly is ridiculous grace to by known and loved by Him. I hope you will take a listen below! Thank you for reading, and I hope this was an encouraging reminder of the incredible love that God has for you.

There are many verses in the bible telling of how we are loved and known by him (he knows even the number of hair on our heads!) but this one is one of my favorites.

1corinthians 13:12 "Now we see things imperfectly, like puzzling reflections in a mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity. All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely."

Here's my family on Christmas day. All on one couch! This is my husband Max, baby Lucas, and our dogs Buddy and Ellie. We hope you had a wonderful christmas with your families!